A Birthday 226 Years in the Making
Holy Mother of Goddess, wait until you hear about what happened to me when Pluto moved into Aquarius for the first time since 1798!!!
My birthday ceremony in California got canceled two days out because the airlines canceled our flight for maintenance!! My besties and I were coming from three different cities, and all were on the same flight from Denver to Cali. Those of us closer to the East Coast couldn’t reschedule a flight that arrived before the start of the ceremony, plus my bestie’s mom died 10 days earlier and she was on the fence about going.
I spent 48 hours in a dark place, like, c'mon Universe! I spent a year planning not to be alone on this milestone birthday and you're gonna play me like that? I sobbed on my meditation pillow searching for the lesson. It felt too late to plan anything else, not to mention I was tired of planning.
I just couldn’t stop crying.
This called for extreme methods! I needed to shock myself into a new state of being. Despite the severe wind chill warning, I decided to don a bathing suit and lie down in the icy snow in my backyard. I had done this type of stuff before, but usually there was a hot tub involved. My skin was burning from icy winds before I even made it to the snow. I was already running back to the house before my body even fully extended onto the frozen, ice patched ground. Anywhere the snow had touched, was on fire, and I didn’t have time to brush the snow off, because my one mission was to get the fuck inside as quickly as possible.
I hesitated to call my bestie, who was grieving her mom, but this was a serious SOS. I asked if I could cry and she said, "Just Come to Denver and we can cry and laugh together" and the window of possibility opened to my brain and I said, oh, ok!
I took a birthday flight to Denver and as the plane was descending, I managed some cool shots of the horizon. The plane ascended sharply without warning, and we were all looking around like what the heck is going on. We made several sharper ascents, yet there were no announcements from The Captain. I was gripping my seat thinking, I was just kidding when I joked that dying on your birthday would make such a cool ass gravestone.
When I got off the plane I asked a nice man to video my happy dance and then my bestie showed up with her head outta the sunroof blasting Saweeties' "Best Friend", and I was like-yes, this is where I'm supposed to be (and exactly why we are best friends.....) THEN, we went out to see this tribal electronic band that night and the entire ballroom sang Happy Birthday...to me, and anyone else with a bday, but you know, it was the Universe laughing its ass off, to say, you are so loved, so supported, alone or with 1000 beautiful strangers, and you are exactly where you are supposed to be.
it was the Universe laughing its ass off, to say, you are so loved, so supported, alone or with 1000 beautiful strangers, and you are exactly where you are supposed to be.
After researching Pluto’s (planet of transformation, rebirth) move into Aquarius (all about humanity) for the first time in 226 years, I was shocked to find its exact time was within minutes of the plane’s ascension.
Pluto acts to strip away what is unnecessary or superficial in our lives. I swear, that ascent was Pluto knocking the shit out of earth’s (and my) atmosphere, in its beautiful power of transformation. You know that Fat Joe song… Nothing can stop me I’m all the way up!!
I eventually got the message. I needed to have everyone, and everything stripped away after all my intentional planning and to come to the place where it was no longer about my bday or the celebration. I needed to answer the question how much do I love myself, how much do I like being with myself and how do I overcome adversity and disappointment… I really think I needed to get that low and find a place of comfort and trust that I’m good no matter what.
I ended up having the most magical trip of my life, one of those where synchronicities abound, you and your bestie can’t stop laughing, and miracles and magic were the status quo.
